The only thing that wasn't right was that most of the day wasn't spent together. I had one of the little guys, my husband had the other little guy. Little boy #1 and his daddy were on the first motorcycle ride of the season. This is what little boy #1 likes to do...it is one of the few activities that he has specifically requested...his dream come true.
This conundrum begged me to ponder our perfect day with a touch of sadness and wonder if this is how life with little boy #1 is going to always be....happiness with a tinge of hurt.
I hold onto the hope that two options will occur as we continue to travel this road. Either we find a family activity that carries us through many perfect days together as a family or we are blessed with a circumstance that we are going to experiment with in a few weeks...we have a big outdoor event in mid-May. Instead of trying to do the impossible and keep up with little boy #1 in an outdoor venue 38 weeks pregnant, a young lady is going to come with us...allowing him to have a ton of fun but dedicating a pair of eyes to keep him safe! We have always tried to go at this road alone, so it will be an adventure in inviting someone else into a family event and observing the new dynamics.
Sunday was a continuation of my thought-provoking weekend. The one continual lesson God teaches me is humility. Sunday morning started with church and a guest appearance by Christopher Duffley (http://www.christopherduffley.com/). This incredible young man was born prematurely to drug addicts. Blind due to the prematurity, spending the first 6+ months of his life in the hospital, then another year and a half in foster care, he was adopted by his aunt and uncle at the age of 2 and later diagnosed with autism. I have always felt that the hubby and I transitioned into our new life with baby boy #1 eight years ago with acceptance. Our little guy was ours, this was our road to walk and a fight we were ready to engage in. However, as I sat in my seat I looked upon Christopher's parents who purposefully and prayerfully entered into their current life, a life that already included four children, and a life that was bound to have its difficulties. Wow - yet another gentle reminder that humility is paramount. Truly understanding humility and chipping away at pride can only be done by comprehending who I am and who God is and what His absolute sovereignty means. Everything I am and have been given has been entrusted to me by God for His purpose and His glory. It really has nothing to do with me at all.
In an effort to live joyfully and purposefully, I continue my efforts to diminish the hurt and focus on true happiness - joy. “Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow.” - Helen Keller If you have that persistent issue in your life that creeps up and brings your joy down, join me in the pursuit of true joy - choosing this true contentment, not settling for happiness, a fleeting emotion.
Tune in for Tastē Thursday in a couple of days. I have a savory, delicious, all-weather dinner to share!